11:22 PM

triangles...inquisitions and the arrival of the captain

Alas the weekend shot me back in time with a needle and thread, flip-flops and east coast radio. It was a horrible picture…starting with Qdee at home on the couch, hemming her jeans. Firstly, jeans and MissQ don’t agree. Well, its a lop-sided relationship – I love jeans, but its unrequited. I think they repel petite girlies who revel between those difficult sizes and who aren’t tall enough for the hip size or scarecrow-narrow enough for the butt size, leaving you with jeans which waft around your waist, and cling to your thighs for dear life, making you regret last week’s tiramisu and leave your legs looking malnourished like your thighs stole all their thunder. So in all my state of confusion between 4 pairs ranging from 26 to 34, I found it. The perfect pair…as silence drowned out the noise of every pavilion shop and heavenly light descended and we made contact…anyway, its perfect…just needed a lil hem. After sewing elastic onto the top of my burqah (I had a receding burqah line after sajdah due to my procrastination of fixing it.) while pinning my jeans, I realized…there I was, on a Sunday afternoon. Sewing. And humming to the classic hits on ECR!! I think it hit me after hearing myself singing the words to ‘McCarthy Toyota – where peace of mind is part of the deeeeeal.’ And I thought – no, this cant be happening to me. I will not let myself slip even though I wrote an exam the day before and my brain was numb! So off to the beach we went, where I ended up marveling at the book stall. So much for that ;) Ooh but The Namesake was on special ok! Anyway, weekends rock if you make the most of em…or do nothing – whatever rocks your boat.lol, even if its ECR ;)

MissQ has been slightly off-centre recently…uncertain things. Ugh. You know, the constant questioning about what you say, or the way you are…like the assumption that im constantly lonely or ‘in need’ of attention coz im an only child. Or the fact that not having a significant other makes you some depressed bag-lady who sips spiked Ensure on her balcony while winking at an imaginary hunk.
Its not said in so many words, but it comes across. Whoever said significant others were the answer to the world’s problems? Sometimes they can BE a world of problems if its the wrong one;) Of course its awesome to love and be loved, but why rush if its not the right time?
Its not like I haven’t had options…like who could forget the indian triangle…


Or the Chinese inquisition at Christmas in Texas…

Or that day at the zoo, when MissQ discovered white boys…
Lol. So I have history ;) but why is it that if you’re a divorced mom or her daughter, you’re automatically thought of as desperate coz you cant afford to be selective? Please. Bullshit.
Anyway, its not like im going to shut people off for expressing their opinions – its just that people often think they’re judging the whole you, when there’s a vast expanse they haven’t even seen. There are just some things that you don’t broadcast, yet which define you in ways others will never grasp. And often, your cant be yourself around certain people. Get that? Or am I babbling. I end up confronting ppl only if it means something to me that the person knows what’s what. Otherwise I tend to let it go, say its ok or whatever coz its not gonna make a difference in the long run. Lol a close friend said to me the other day that ‘you’re too nice – one day, you’re just gonna flip and go psycho’ hehe. I have had a few nutty moments this year—oh and architecture year, where Qdee swore in public for the first time and threw her lip gloss into the bin angrily in front of everyone coz this weird guy used it and pouted at her.

So the point is…just because I seem a lil unsure of things…uncertain of jeans and my thighs, sometimes shy and avoid confrontations, does not mean Im a ladybug looking to get analysed or squished. I do stand up for myself when it counts…

Bottom line – life is full of diverse, exciting things, with incredible people…


But it isn’t a fairytale…
And it can be cruel and kind and rejuvenating and sweet and heartbreaking and time can stand still and tomorrow it can have you looking back thinking how everything’s gone so fast…essentially, its about what you make of it. Live for the moment. Be happy. Don’t judge people. Coz no matter how well you know someone, you aren’t them. Everything has a reason. This year’s taught me a lot of hard lessons already, like what’s really important…and that your capabilities extend far more than you thought they did…that what you leave behind with no expectation can come back and make your life beautiful…and that sometimes pink strappy sandals aren’t always the best fashion buy ;)

P.S...........

All hail captain juju!! :) http://www.captain-juju.blogspot.com/
MissQ welcomes ‘he who has special power to rock the world’ to blogosphere with icecream, chocolates and a black Peugeot 206 ;) Roll out the red carpet, scatter the glitter, light the lanterns and prepare the feast for his long awaited arrival from the frozen, dry corporate jungle of the northern regions (jhb). Lol. Be nice. One in a million kinda boi :)

16 comments:

taqdeer said...

hehe, qdee..

..I know you will never become a:
'Depressed bag-lady, singing lyrics of Mc Carthy motors in her uncertain jeans, who sips spiked Ensure on her balcony while winking at an imaginary hunk.'

lol, that One in a million kinda boi has already been written in your taqdeer :) He's just trading his horse in for a black Peugeot 206 ;)

qdee said...

lol lol, you and your perfect comments ;)
u sure i wont have a million cats?hehe. as for my taqdeer, lets hope something great is written in the stars...

Dreamlife said...

it used to be "Dan Perkins Toyota"... i guess Dan is no longer part of the deal ;)

"what you leave behind with no expectation can come back and make your life beautiful"...that's an awesome thought :)


ps:
anyone know where the phrase "written in the stars" comes from? sounds astrological...but i'm not sure.

Waseem said...

Didnt you name say you're attracted to ethnical groupings lol.

'Im sitting down here but hey you can see me' song is stuck in my head and i dont want it to be :(.

I liked the fairytale part, the picture and what you said ... its like hopeful in a sad way (well thats how i read it)

'that what you leave behind with no expectation can come back and make your life beautiful' - I hope so

juju said...
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juju said...

slmz Q
just read your latest post now
loved it

"...and time can stand still and tomorrow it can have you looking back thinking how everything’s gone so fast…essentially, its about what you make of it..."

to add to what you said (one of my favourite sayings)

"You cannot step twice into the same river, for other waters are continually flowing upon you.
Everything flows and nothing abides; everything gives way and nothing stays fixed. It is in changing that things find repose."

modern translation of "Panta Rhei"
Heraclitus (535-475 BC)

And as for great things written in the stars, for you I have no doubt.

Miss you Q

ps: kinda worried 'bout the way you looking at the white kid;
a little bit creepy ;)

qdee said...

dreamlife:caoitalism didnt like dan perkins ;) hmm...i try and find out about the phrase hun.

lol waseem: lene marlin? hehe, used to haunt me in 11th grade...think happy thoughts!! yeah ethnic! why didnt i see that b4? smile!

juju: eish..what happens if you just dont step in the river? what if you step in it and kill a fish? :P
deep quote...lol, yeah i was shocked at that pic hey!it was the zoo ok. and i wasnt sure about him lol. i've been looking suspect for a while now. poor thing. he looks like he doesnt look to happy..like he'd rather be behind the bars lol. miss u madly.

Fatima said...

I love how your pics fit in with your post :P

Sigh, life is strange and silly.

singleguy said...

Q, honey...that was a beautifully thought out post...

Nadz said...

I agree its a beautiful post.you sound like a lovely girl and you have alot of insight to offer this world and your friends.

mario said...

i could comment but then i would be analyzing you.

qdee said...

lol, thanx..
singleguy: had to find something to do with those pics ;)

nadz and fatima: aww...sweet.

mario: lol you're naturally analytical - its expected. but what gets me is ppl that wait for u to slip up somewhere.

qdee said...

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qd needed to log on

!Joe! said...

LOL :D

this made me laugh especially the pics! hey, didn't i forbid you from listening to that East coast radio??! right, no ice-cream for two weeks:) lol, my thighs are also stealing my calves' thunder:)ooh you and i are haberdashery hos:D

!Joe! said...

btw you will never be a cat lady, ok? you are too glamorous... G L A M O R O U S as Fergie says :)as for all those stereotypes, i wish someone would stop spreading those things, they are so tired and so completely wrong....women who are divorced and children who have no siblings are not desperate and seeking attention!!! i swear its like we're living amongst buffoons! Grrrr...

qdee said...

joe :) glamorous! zoey and i were just saying that we need to take that on with a passion...glad u chose the princess material!


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